Update = blargh

The ER was as anticlimactic as chemo.  I expected blood spurting and wives screaming but it was a lot of sitting around in various places.  My x-ray came back fine but my bloodwork came back holycrap anemic.  They called my poor oncologist at like 1am and she issued antibiotics and harder pain meds.  The antibiotics make me throw up but I still managed to be 119.6 when I got weighed today!

Managed the PET scan without needing to put my arms over my head, yay!

Antibiotics seem to be working, my shoulder's felt progressively better.  Not great…frustrating, it's still limiting simple activities, but better is better, I'll take it.

Results of the scan….the shoulder pain may be a new cancer site, there's also one in my leg and while the spots on my liver shrank, more have appeared.  This means it's more aggressive than anticipated.  It's mutating and resisting treatment after only the second one.  My oncologist said she didn't want to scare me, but did want to be honest, which is, of course, scary.  I mean it's bad enough to have it for no reason, as young as I am, let alone it being all Super Shredder on me.  

We're doing a different chemo cocktail to hopefully smash it before it realizes what's  coming.

She also was not thrilled with me getting a puppy.  She said my parents could get a puppy but that I shouldn't be the primary caregiver–I can't do any of the clean-up or be around any time the puppy is learning not to bite/jump/scratch because of the infection potential.

):  I don't know that my parents want to be doing that much of the work ):  Now of all times, I really really really need my  dog ):  My dad said maybe when I'm 'done' with treatment, but if it's going to get complicated….when will that be?  It doesn't bode well for the future….I want a dog in that future to come back to no matter what happens.

I live at the doctor

I thought I pulled a muscle in my shoulder, it was almost better last Friday but the last few days it's gotten so painful that I can't get out of bed/change clothes.  So we called the oncology office, it's too late for an appointment today of course, and they recommend a vacation to the ER.  Ugh.  I already have two needles + mediport access and chemo to survive this week, really not looking forward to more poking and prodding and finding things wrong.